Extrovert and Introvert: Of That, I Am Neither.
I used to detest being on my own. Staying at home when I could be out with my friends. It felt as if I wasn’t part of the world out there. It felt as if the world outside was moving on at its rapid pace without my being involved in it.
Some things such as watching a movie alone used to be unthinkable. I think till now, I would very much rather skip a movie than to sit in a movie theatre alone and be surrounded by large groups of friends and couples. Similarly, there have only been few occasions when I shopped alone — they always arose out of necessity than of any desire I had. In fact, I remember doing so and walking down a street myself some years ago (it might have been in Orchard, i think). I felt lonely just looking at the passers-by with their friends and partners, and subsequently decided going solo never is a good thing.
In recent months, however, I have begun to appreciate my own company much more—crave for it even. It has begun to manifest itself in very small ways, from making plans to shop alone for things I need in Orchard (I would never have shopped alone, least of all in places like Orchard) to bigger things like travelling alone in Europe (GRAD TRIP!!) or in the US next year. In my head, I imagine myself walking down the cobbled streets of Italy with my backpack and map in hand, taking in the sights and sounds on my own, dining at good restaurants and looking out the window to people-watch. All the while smiling. Or I would be taking a long train ride to Germany to visit Sabrina, reading a book, listening to music, and looking out at the wonderful scenery outside. Just chillin’ on my own, you know. I am already looking forward to taking a plane alone when leaving for US next year! Heck, thoughts of watching a movie alone one day have been on my mind for some time now. I actually think it might be rather cool :p ….Might. We’ll see.
